Just Another Update...

June 23, 2010.

Wednesday,

the rain had just stop...

everything seems to be quite quiet,

peace n refreshing feelings...

until my bro n sis back home,

everything seems to be turned around,

kinda badly,i described.

I'm still like always, being myself,

but...

better than before, learning and improving in many ways,

from every mistake,

and improving from the goods...

Holiday...

a little uncomfortable yet a little weird mood days,

someone may ask, did u enjoy well?

erm...

i don't really think so...

sleep late wake late,

online n watching tv,

eat quite much but luckily i still going for sports.

hmm...

not bad? or very bad?

i think...ya not bad, better than sleep whole day huh..LOL

1 month man, 1 month,

part time job? yea, i'll think of it...

revise my studies? i don't think i can do it but i can try..

reading books? yea, planned actually...

Okay enough, here's the problem actually,

1st, my lazy-ness

2nd, still lazy

3rd, very very lazy...

WTH~!!!

It seems like my body controlling me more

than i controlling my body...darn it!

ya my mind is really not strong enough, cause sometimes it delayed,

quite a while...

and 1 more thing,

this laptop i'm using,

i'm sticked to it....

someone please help me refresh my thinking...

these serious problem is killing me!

Here's the begining..........

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The Search: Act 6(last) > Failed this Story

Here i am, finally back after about 1 month, felt so depressed and kinda sad, because i stopped for a long time,and it's a long~ time,so i failed to continue this story...and this, was one of my story that fails for the 1st time...title:The Search. Hope my dear viewer can understand how busy i am during those assignment days. No worry guys and gals, my inspiration and thinking comes most of the time, my mind often full of word and i always like to share it to all my friend, lol...so, someday, i will start blogging often and create another story of mine...haha, hope my viewer will like it and support my blog... i will be glad to have ur comment even it is bad..but i dun think there will be any bad comment, right? lolx.. Okay then, i'll stop here and end the story of "The Search"...> http://www.singlegeministory.blogspot.com/ (started)...lol^^XD

The Search: Act 5> un-frozen-able time

2.25pm... I...finally discover 1 way to get to those answers i wanted...it's just a way...not the only way...time.. as time goes by, everything change, every secrets appear slowly in front your eyes or maybe through your ears... why...? cause... as a example, the one u love that u haven't tell he/her how much u love him/her, appeared in front of eye, holding hands with the other person... and u had ensure that the person did't have any brother or sister...at this moment, the answer revealed, what can u do is just turn around and cry inside your heart... Someone thinks that time is cruel or maybe someone thinks that time is a angel that helps u reveal the truth so u won't fall deeper into a trap... 2:35pm...as for me..i think i have to let the time help me...help me the find a chances ,help me reveal the truth, to know that is my angel or princess had already appear without my notice... but still, i'm counting on time and the effort of myself... i hope when the right time comes, i'll be happy...happy to see a double shadow along the street, and to see a complete heart shape... i dun care...how lonely am i, how useless am i, how stupid am i, how confuse am i... i don't care, because... i'm clear, as time goes by, i'll slowly gain more experiences, and slowly changes myself...i just had to wait...wait for the right time match with my effort....to had a wonderful perfect ending...happily ever after...... End at 2:50pm..proven that time are alway flowing...

The Search: Act 4>Nightlife

Recently, i feel i'm becoming a vampire, very weak in the morning and very active in the night... Hmm.. is there gonna be many 'vampire' among my friends? Ya, absolutely, why? this what i called college life changes our normal life... stressing everyday and then rushing assignment here and there...especially for those lazy and last-minute people like me...as known as the ''super vampire''... can stay the whole night without sleeping...but, 1 important message to all, sleep after 2~3am is very unhealthy , don't let it be your habit, u'll regret like me, i'm trying my best to sleep as early as possible... Every night, i sit in front of my PC, starring close and slowly my eyes goes blur and more blur...alone downstairs with a dimmed light, everything just seems to be very silent and quiet....and most of the time, my mind gives me quite many inspiration or thinking during these time... Think a lot of things, friends,studies,assignment,games and love....being very very EMO at this time, many thinking makes my confusing and complicating... adding so much stress for myself letting myself headache many times...No strong reason...just... that's who am i and what i wanted to do... Being myself all the time but still sometimes influences by friends... Honestly, i still didn't get it, who am i really is and what i suppose to do??? I kinda get some part of the answers myself,not all, but i really can't explain it out....speechless..... ><

The Search: Act 3> Saved file

Loading...... Hmm.., i wonder...do human's memory had something common with the PC..? memory,data,files,speed,connection...and more... Nope...i won't agree with that fully... but will agree almost half... get it?? Nevermind.. I'll try to use PC computerize style to describe the life of mine...Okay.... for me..everything i learned or been through, will be file up in a folder, every folder represents what i do everyday, eat,bath,sleep,watching tv,sleeping and so on...make it easy,daily activities i normally do... And...some other files were kept in 'my computer' . There're 2 program inside 'my computer', ''Hard Disk C:'' and "Hard Disk D:" ...and 1 of it keep those file related to relatives and family, and the other file keep those file related to friends and lover... then...inside those hard disk contain files that contain data, and if, something complicated...it will saved deep inside a files containing many files that contain complicated data... erm...can get what i mean??... Next, i called it the corrupted 'recycle bin', deleting things or some unused data such as your bad past life... but, u can just delete it and put them into recycle bin, and u can't clean the recycle bin unless u lost your memory...cause sometime u may like to restore back into your files...Last, as for games and application in PC, represents your free time with your friends, 'yam cha', play basketball, watch movie, jogging or something fun... As for the virus that corrupt your life..that's your problem, and u are also an Anti-virus, u must solve it your own, why i say that? because... that's what u created...Damn it... i also not sure what am i talking about..lol forget it if you can't get it. Okay...that all i can describe... wait! 1 more, Internet Explorer=my hobby,parts of my life that helps make connect to everyone... and many more... OMG! what a long passage><><....

The Search: Act 2>Restless Tired,Very..

...Seriously, my eyes going to close soon, very tired...so heavy...every movement slows down, every action... Here's how my title explains about...

Saturday, full day working as part-time job at a big mall, what i have to do? stand and non-stop promoting, resting time, not short not long, and by the way, very hard to being lazy awhile sitting down, because for me, spies are everywhere while u work, so scary..lol Okay, finally at last i done a quite well job doing a not bad business... And then, go drink tea a Indian's Corner ...chatting and joking even it's a lame joke we just share it...after that went back pick my cloths ant went to my friend's house ,stay over 1 night...because tomorrow is a big day... 12 hours working+2 hours morning prepare+ 1 hour drink tea+ 3 hours night still online+ 1 hour chatting in room=1 hour time sleep and rest, cause we have to wake up early about 5am... Directly to the point, we have a basketball game at Times Square about 9am...

After we reach our destination... crowded... Darn, my eye can't take it anymore... dun wanna explain too much.. ..........(skipped unnecessary parts)...........At last, even we lose the match, we are still happy cause at least we tried our best to defeat the pros and spent time together with friends chatting and gossiping at there... what a wonderful day.....

Finally, after i reach home with empty stomach, i was so lucky to see pizza and KFC on the table behind, mum and dad out, that food was a gift by my neighbors, so good..lol, 4 piece hawaiian pizza and 1 chicken drumstick, phew...satisfication.... nice and yummy...

YEAH~! last paragraph, i'm going to stop ASAP. Good night my fellow friends...hope u like it....zzzz....Nearly sleep infront of the PC><...Battery left 2%...BYE~~~

The Search: Act 1>another life story again

Finally the heavy cooling rain with little strong lightning...stopped... My 1st chapter starts here... Recently, too much, too much...thing for me to think...damn headache, almost wanna drown myself in a deep blue sea... and those thing i think about, it's just like a very deep jungle with thick bushes and trees, thorns and wild animal, swamp and traps everywhere...my mission....journey of searching the last piece of the heart puzzle, location..., the deepest point inside the jungle...wow, god, i'll die anytime, anywhere inside there... What the Hxxx! why am i doing this to myself, moron argh~!! damn, assignment stress+feeling stress+confusing stress+complicated stress= Fxxking Stress.. Phew... sorry for those bad words... Haih, since this is the 1st story, i just describe what am i feeling NOW~! the next chapter will be a little different from this... Before i go, the last word in my mind now is "i watched the huge shady grey sky, i'll wait...wait until the bright blue sky appear, will i... have the courage the fly as high as possible with my wings or i can't even have a wings for me to fly...."

Another story...( Sorry for the long passage, hope u have time to read it..)

Hey guys and gals... it's been quite a long time i stopped update...something goes wrong with me between those days...forget about it... I always felt like...there's many thing, many thoughts, many words inside my mind, confusing me sometimes... so, i found some ideas to let myself feel a bit relaxing so that i won't overload my files in my mind, by sharing it in my blogger... and i...just hoping everyone who view my blog, will enjoy viewing it, read it, understand it or share some ideas with me..and that will make me very happy...

Recently, i enjoy being EMO, a.k.a emotional, why? because... the truth is i'm really in very depressing and upset mood these days, not always but most of the time... again,the question, why? i asked myself, there's answer...but, to compare, question is more than the answers 10 times... complicated, confuse, retarded, feeling down, moody, and too much unspeakable hidden secret behind most of the thing...humans,feelings,loves,expressions,thoughts... Try to understand the inner me... who am i actually? is that all of my characteristic? waiting... every answers need a time...long or short...depends on when we reveal it...

I'll begin my other story about my life, sooner or later, just a notice, title: Journey of searching the lost piece , a.k.a ''the search'' as short title... it's almost related to the story i wrote before... hope everyone can wait for it and enjoy it... coming soon...

(THANKS FOR THE TIME FOR READING IT, VERY APPRECIATE IT...HOPE U ENJOY READING IT...><)

The Missing Letter :16th piece (last)

........................................Lost.........................................for some reason.........will he try to search for it or forget about it....... he decides..........................cause there's an unexplainable weird feeling that this last letter had the secret behind.......reveal it by searching it, or leave it alone?...unpleasant feeling..

The Missing Letter :15th piece

To: "the person"

Saturday night...describe it as cloudy dark night and...full moon... Finally, he saw the full moon, it means the letter he wrote will ends and complete very soon... At the night, the air was very cooling, he sat down on a chair and watched the big bright moon, by watching the moon, he hopes he can see your face on the surface of the moon...and also listen to the rhythm of my heartbeat through the winds that blows by... "Am i really in love with her...am i qualify to love a person deeply, am i doing the right thing... i don't know and i don't care... i just try my best to wait for her...and i won't care whether at the end it is happily ever after or death fall in th middle, i just know nothing gonna change my love for u, until u kill me so..." his thinking on the middle of the crowded people... One more letter to go to end this story...

from: "the boy"

The Missing Letter :14th piece

To: "the person"

Cloudy morning, seems that going to rain soon but it won't... Yesterday night was very cloudy too, hoping for the round moon to shine but it covered by the clouds, a little of disappointment... won't mind too much, what he cares about is the person. Is the sky different at there? is the moon same as here, didn't shine brightly? Hope the person have the chance to see the bright moon, even it covered by the clouds, blurred, the moon is still obvious.. also hoping the person can take a look at the moon and feels the wishes he wished for the person through the moon..." I'm going to end this letter writing soon, hope u will notice the presents of me at the end.., please help me take care of yourself" from his thought..

from: "the boy"

The Missing Letter :13th piece

To: "the person"

Sunny morning, hot but warm... Think that he should sleep early these day, used up to much energy will easily get tired, over tired without resting will easily get sick, after getting sick, he can't protect the person.. Went to the mountains today, fresh green plants with the softness of the wind blew moderately.. and then he lays down a big field, watching the bright blue sky, peaceful and full of hope... mountain, wind, flower, trees, lake.... unexplainable powerful aura... wait, forget to mention about the person..., who says...? its obviously described... those surroundings... he wonder... "can i use these perfect scenery to describe it as you..?" maybe... or yes....

from: "the boy"

The Missing Letter :12th piece

To: "the person"

Bright white sky with a little light blue on it... Have to say he's sorry again, waited until the next day only start to write it..actually will the person mind of it...is the person waiting his letter to response...unknown.. Another day has come, and it's already the 12th day he misses the person deeply... Yesterday, when he was sleeping, he dreamed... dream of the person, the scene was just the person passes his house and smile at him, and then just disappear when he wanted to walk towards the person.. A bit of disappointment but still.., that's more than enough for him, unforgettable smile... "As time goes by, as everything changes little by little, but my feelings for you, remains the same..., i doesn't know why..." from his mind, through the person...

from: "the boy"

The Missing Letter :11th piece

To: "the person"

Another normal weather....no rain soft wind... Tired,started to get tired and bored to write, one strong reason, seems like everyday just like the day before.. or as known as just like another normal day... Here's some sentence from him to the person,"Staring at the moon so blue, turning all my thoughts to you, i was without hope or dream, try to dull an inner scream,...walking on a path of air, see your faces everywhere, as you melt this heart of stone, you took my heart away.." a nice word of sentence from a song he just heard......

from: "the boy"

The Missing Letter :10th piece

To: "the person"

Grey colored moon and deep black sky with few tiny little stars.. Made it in time to write this 10th letter.. It's been already 10 days the boy being far apart with the person, won't mind a little cause he still have the person in his mind, hoping the person have the same thinking like him too. Today, just almost like yesterday, bored and tired... so, think of something that he can tell the person in this letter.. first word for today was.. ''i guess...i almost can't live without you, but dun worry, the choices are yours, just choose what's best for you.. i won't force you to let me be alive.." his inspiration for today when he think of the person...

from: "the boy"

The Missing Letter :9th piece

To: "the person"

A soft rain morning with cold air... Again, he wrote this letter on the next day, sorry to say that yesterday gain too much of energy, felt lazy and bored, used the energy to sleep early.. sorry.. Yesterday was a too relaxing day, done nothing almost whole day beside thinking of you.. Until the night, had dinner with family with plenty of delicious food, but.. when he saw the food , the first impression was '' i hope that 1 day we can dine together, just you and me.'' in his mind thinking.. "Do you feel happy these days?" the boy waits and hope to get the person's reply in his dream or maybe in real life...

from: "the boy"

The Missing Letter :8th piece

To: "the person"

Hazy night and almost like a dimmed night... Woke up very early today and had already started to burn his energy again.., trying the best as possible. Until afternoon, tired and bored about nothing to do, slept.. In his dreams, the story began...'he was walking alone in the forest, and suddenly, he saw a princess, was like the person, blurred unclear face, when he was running towards the person, the distance suddenly becomes far and far away..until he saw nothing, at that moment, he was sad and cried hopelessly, cause he had trapped inside the forest alone and lost inside the dark thick forest.' When he woke up after suffocating in the forest alone, he wiped his tears and wished that dream won't come true... "How are u these day? i'm still me and i'm fine.. hoping u are fine too", last small message wrote by him to the person..hope that one day the person will reveal this invisible letter and answer him back...

from: "the boy"

The Missing Letter :7th piece

To: "the person"

A sunny clear morning... Woke up early to write this because forgotten to write it yesterday night cause of too tired and exhausted, very sorry.. So tired...because of burning over much energy yesterday... Yesterday, finally, had the chance to take a deep breath under the clear blue water, deep inside the water...he...finally heard his heartbeat..with a moderate rhythm...when he close his eyes inside the deep water and think of the person..., the person almost take his breath away..but..satisfied...even that he almost drown..cause at this moment, he knows that when he was thinking of the person, his heartbeat will increase, and that brings out the meaning that he had already leave a place in his heart for the person... He was hoping that the person will imagine about this letter after wake up from bed...

from: "the boy"

The Missing Letter :6th piece

To: "the person"

Almost the same time at the same place.... Today, the weather was very nice, grey cloud surrounding the bright star.., clear blue mixed the true black covered the whole sky.., as the cold wind blows by..he looked at the pure white moon brightly shines.. he thought for a moment and what is in his mind is.." your beautiful smile are almost just like the person.." the boy says to the moon.. Felt sorry for himself burning not enough energy today...hoping that the person will forgive him.. Lastly..one sentence flew into his mind..."even know that i doesn't know u miss me or not, but.., i'm clear with myself...i really miss you...". This letter was planned to send to a person, without an address...will it success?

from: ''the boy''