The Search: Act 6(last) > Failed this Story

Here i am, finally back after about 1 month, felt so depressed and kinda sad, because i stopped for a long time,and it's a long~ time,so i failed to continue this story...and this, was one of my story that fails for the 1st time...title:The Search. Hope my dear viewer can understand how busy i am during those assignment days. No worry guys and gals, my inspiration and thinking comes most of the time, my mind often full of word and i always like to share it to all my friend, lol...so, someday, i will start blogging often and create another story of mine...haha, hope my viewer will like it and support my blog... i will be glad to have ur comment even it is bad..but i dun think there will be any bad comment, right? lolx.. Okay then, i'll stop here and end the story of "The Search"...> http://www.singlegeministory.blogspot.com/ (started)...lol^^XD

The Search: Act 5> un-frozen-able time

2.25pm... I...finally discover 1 way to get to those answers i wanted...it's just a way...not the only way...time.. as time goes by, everything change, every secrets appear slowly in front your eyes or maybe through your ears... why...? cause... as a example, the one u love that u haven't tell he/her how much u love him/her, appeared in front of eye, holding hands with the other person... and u had ensure that the person did't have any brother or sister...at this moment, the answer revealed, what can u do is just turn around and cry inside your heart... Someone thinks that time is cruel or maybe someone thinks that time is a angel that helps u reveal the truth so u won't fall deeper into a trap... 2:35pm...as for me..i think i have to let the time help me...help me the find a chances ,help me reveal the truth, to know that is my angel or princess had already appear without my notice... but still, i'm counting on time and the effort of myself... i hope when the right time comes, i'll be happy...happy to see a double shadow along the street, and to see a complete heart shape... i dun care...how lonely am i, how useless am i, how stupid am i, how confuse am i... i don't care, because... i'm clear, as time goes by, i'll slowly gain more experiences, and slowly changes myself...i just had to wait...wait for the right time match with my effort....to had a wonderful perfect ending...happily ever after...... End at 2:50pm..proven that time are alway flowing...

The Search: Act 4>Nightlife

Recently, i feel i'm becoming a vampire, very weak in the morning and very active in the night... Hmm.. is there gonna be many 'vampire' among my friends? Ya, absolutely, why? this what i called college life changes our normal life... stressing everyday and then rushing assignment here and there...especially for those lazy and last-minute people like me...as known as the ''super vampire''... can stay the whole night without sleeping...but, 1 important message to all, sleep after 2~3am is very unhealthy , don't let it be your habit, u'll regret like me, i'm trying my best to sleep as early as possible... Every night, i sit in front of my PC, starring close and slowly my eyes goes blur and more blur...alone downstairs with a dimmed light, everything just seems to be very silent and quiet....and most of the time, my mind gives me quite many inspiration or thinking during these time... Think a lot of things, friends,studies,assignment,games and love....being very very EMO at this time, many thinking makes my confusing and complicating... adding so much stress for myself letting myself headache many times...No strong reason...just... that's who am i and what i wanted to do... Being myself all the time but still sometimes influences by friends... Honestly, i still didn't get it, who am i really is and what i suppose to do??? I kinda get some part of the answers myself,not all, but i really can't explain it out....speechless..... ><

The Search: Act 3> Saved file

Loading...... Hmm.., i wonder...do human's memory had something common with the PC..? memory,data,files,speed,connection...and more... Nope...i won't agree with that fully... but will agree almost half... get it?? Nevermind.. I'll try to use PC computerize style to describe the life of mine...Okay.... for me..everything i learned or been through, will be file up in a folder, every folder represents what i do everyday, eat,bath,sleep,watching tv,sleeping and so on...make it easy,daily activities i normally do... And...some other files were kept in 'my computer' . There're 2 program inside 'my computer', ''Hard Disk C:'' and "Hard Disk D:" ...and 1 of it keep those file related to relatives and family, and the other file keep those file related to friends and lover... then...inside those hard disk contain files that contain data, and if, something complicated...it will saved deep inside a files containing many files that contain complicated data... erm...can get what i mean??... Next, i called it the corrupted 'recycle bin', deleting things or some unused data such as your bad past life... but, u can just delete it and put them into recycle bin, and u can't clean the recycle bin unless u lost your memory...cause sometime u may like to restore back into your files...Last, as for games and application in PC, represents your free time with your friends, 'yam cha', play basketball, watch movie, jogging or something fun... As for the virus that corrupt your life..that's your problem, and u are also an Anti-virus, u must solve it your own, why i say that? because... that's what u created...Damn it... i also not sure what am i talking about..lol forget it if you can't get it. Okay...that all i can describe... wait! 1 more, Internet Explorer=my hobby,parts of my life that helps make connect to everyone... and many more... OMG! what a long passage><><....

The Search: Act 2>Restless Tired,Very..

...Seriously, my eyes going to close soon, very tired...so heavy...every movement slows down, every action... Here's how my title explains about...

Saturday, full day working as part-time job at a big mall, what i have to do? stand and non-stop promoting, resting time, not short not long, and by the way, very hard to being lazy awhile sitting down, because for me, spies are everywhere while u work, so scary..lol Okay, finally at last i done a quite well job doing a not bad business... And then, go drink tea a Indian's Corner ...chatting and joking even it's a lame joke we just share it...after that went back pick my cloths ant went to my friend's house ,stay over 1 night...because tomorrow is a big day... 12 hours working+2 hours morning prepare+ 1 hour drink tea+ 3 hours night still online+ 1 hour chatting in room=1 hour time sleep and rest, cause we have to wake up early about 5am... Directly to the point, we have a basketball game at Times Square about 9am...

After we reach our destination... crowded... Darn, my eye can't take it anymore... dun wanna explain too much.. ..........(skipped unnecessary parts)...........At last, even we lose the match, we are still happy cause at least we tried our best to defeat the pros and spent time together with friends chatting and gossiping at there... what a wonderful day.....

Finally, after i reach home with empty stomach, i was so lucky to see pizza and KFC on the table behind, mum and dad out, that food was a gift by my neighbors, so good..lol, 4 piece hawaiian pizza and 1 chicken drumstick, phew...satisfication.... nice and yummy...

YEAH~! last paragraph, i'm going to stop ASAP. Good night my fellow friends...hope u like it....zzzz....Nearly sleep infront of the PC><...Battery left 2%...BYE~~~

The Search: Act 1>another life story again

Finally the heavy cooling rain with little strong lightning...stopped... My 1st chapter starts here... Recently, too much, too much...thing for me to think...damn headache, almost wanna drown myself in a deep blue sea... and those thing i think about, it's just like a very deep jungle with thick bushes and trees, thorns and wild animal, swamp and traps everywhere...my mission....journey of searching the last piece of the heart puzzle, location..., the deepest point inside the jungle...wow, god, i'll die anytime, anywhere inside there... What the Hxxx! why am i doing this to myself, moron argh~!! damn, assignment stress+feeling stress+confusing stress+complicated stress= Fxxking Stress.. Phew... sorry for those bad words... Haih, since this is the 1st story, i just describe what am i feeling NOW~! the next chapter will be a little different from this... Before i go, the last word in my mind now is "i watched the huge shady grey sky, i'll wait...wait until the bright blue sky appear, will i... have the courage the fly as high as possible with my wings or i can't even have a wings for me to fly...."

Another story...( Sorry for the long passage, hope u have time to read it..)

Hey guys and gals... it's been quite a long time i stopped update...something goes wrong with me between those days...forget about it... I always felt like...there's many thing, many thoughts, many words inside my mind, confusing me sometimes... so, i found some ideas to let myself feel a bit relaxing so that i won't overload my files in my mind, by sharing it in my blogger... and i...just hoping everyone who view my blog, will enjoy viewing it, read it, understand it or share some ideas with me..and that will make me very happy...

Recently, i enjoy being EMO, a.k.a emotional, why? because... the truth is i'm really in very depressing and upset mood these days, not always but most of the time... again,the question, why? i asked myself, there's answer...but, to compare, question is more than the answers 10 times... complicated, confuse, retarded, feeling down, moody, and too much unspeakable hidden secret behind most of the thing...humans,feelings,loves,expressions,thoughts... Try to understand the inner me... who am i actually? is that all of my characteristic? waiting... every answers need a time...long or short...depends on when we reveal it...

I'll begin my other story about my life, sooner or later, just a notice, title: Journey of searching the lost piece , a.k.a ''the search'' as short title... it's almost related to the story i wrote before... hope everyone can wait for it and enjoy it... coming soon...

(THANKS FOR THE TIME FOR READING IT, VERY APPRECIATE IT...HOPE U ENJOY READING IT...><)

The Missing Letter :16th piece (last)

........................................Lost.........................................for some reason.........will he try to search for it or forget about it....... he decides..........................cause there's an unexplainable weird feeling that this last letter had the secret behind.......reveal it by searching it, or leave it alone?...unpleasant feeling..

The Missing Letter :15th piece

To: "the person"

Saturday night...describe it as cloudy dark night and...full moon... Finally, he saw the full moon, it means the letter he wrote will ends and complete very soon... At the night, the air was very cooling, he sat down on a chair and watched the big bright moon, by watching the moon, he hopes he can see your face on the surface of the moon...and also listen to the rhythm of my heartbeat through the winds that blows by... "Am i really in love with her...am i qualify to love a person deeply, am i doing the right thing... i don't know and i don't care... i just try my best to wait for her...and i won't care whether at the end it is happily ever after or death fall in th middle, i just know nothing gonna change my love for u, until u kill me so..." his thinking on the middle of the crowded people... One more letter to go to end this story...

from: "the boy"

The Missing Letter :14th piece

To: "the person"

Cloudy morning, seems that going to rain soon but it won't... Yesterday night was very cloudy too, hoping for the round moon to shine but it covered by the clouds, a little of disappointment... won't mind too much, what he cares about is the person. Is the sky different at there? is the moon same as here, didn't shine brightly? Hope the person have the chance to see the bright moon, even it covered by the clouds, blurred, the moon is still obvious.. also hoping the person can take a look at the moon and feels the wishes he wished for the person through the moon..." I'm going to end this letter writing soon, hope u will notice the presents of me at the end.., please help me take care of yourself" from his thought..

from: "the boy"

The Missing Letter :13th piece

To: "the person"

Sunny morning, hot but warm... Think that he should sleep early these day, used up to much energy will easily get tired, over tired without resting will easily get sick, after getting sick, he can't protect the person.. Went to the mountains today, fresh green plants with the softness of the wind blew moderately.. and then he lays down a big field, watching the bright blue sky, peaceful and full of hope... mountain, wind, flower, trees, lake.... unexplainable powerful aura... wait, forget to mention about the person..., who says...? its obviously described... those surroundings... he wonder... "can i use these perfect scenery to describe it as you..?" maybe... or yes....

from: "the boy"

The Missing Letter :12th piece

To: "the person"

Bright white sky with a little light blue on it... Have to say he's sorry again, waited until the next day only start to write it..actually will the person mind of it...is the person waiting his letter to response...unknown.. Another day has come, and it's already the 12th day he misses the person deeply... Yesterday, when he was sleeping, he dreamed... dream of the person, the scene was just the person passes his house and smile at him, and then just disappear when he wanted to walk towards the person.. A bit of disappointment but still.., that's more than enough for him, unforgettable smile... "As time goes by, as everything changes little by little, but my feelings for you, remains the same..., i doesn't know why..." from his mind, through the person...

from: "the boy"

The Missing Letter :11th piece

To: "the person"

Another normal weather....no rain soft wind... Tired,started to get tired and bored to write, one strong reason, seems like everyday just like the day before.. or as known as just like another normal day... Here's some sentence from him to the person,"Staring at the moon so blue, turning all my thoughts to you, i was without hope or dream, try to dull an inner scream,...walking on a path of air, see your faces everywhere, as you melt this heart of stone, you took my heart away.." a nice word of sentence from a song he just heard......

from: "the boy"

The Missing Letter :10th piece

To: "the person"

Grey colored moon and deep black sky with few tiny little stars.. Made it in time to write this 10th letter.. It's been already 10 days the boy being far apart with the person, won't mind a little cause he still have the person in his mind, hoping the person have the same thinking like him too. Today, just almost like yesterday, bored and tired... so, think of something that he can tell the person in this letter.. first word for today was.. ''i guess...i almost can't live without you, but dun worry, the choices are yours, just choose what's best for you.. i won't force you to let me be alive.." his inspiration for today when he think of the person...

from: "the boy"

The Missing Letter :9th piece

To: "the person"

A soft rain morning with cold air... Again, he wrote this letter on the next day, sorry to say that yesterday gain too much of energy, felt lazy and bored, used the energy to sleep early.. sorry.. Yesterday was a too relaxing day, done nothing almost whole day beside thinking of you.. Until the night, had dinner with family with plenty of delicious food, but.. when he saw the food , the first impression was '' i hope that 1 day we can dine together, just you and me.'' in his mind thinking.. "Do you feel happy these days?" the boy waits and hope to get the person's reply in his dream or maybe in real life...

from: "the boy"

The Missing Letter :8th piece

To: "the person"

Hazy night and almost like a dimmed night... Woke up very early today and had already started to burn his energy again.., trying the best as possible. Until afternoon, tired and bored about nothing to do, slept.. In his dreams, the story began...'he was walking alone in the forest, and suddenly, he saw a princess, was like the person, blurred unclear face, when he was running towards the person, the distance suddenly becomes far and far away..until he saw nothing, at that moment, he was sad and cried hopelessly, cause he had trapped inside the forest alone and lost inside the dark thick forest.' When he woke up after suffocating in the forest alone, he wiped his tears and wished that dream won't come true... "How are u these day? i'm still me and i'm fine.. hoping u are fine too", last small message wrote by him to the person..hope that one day the person will reveal this invisible letter and answer him back...

from: "the boy"

The Missing Letter :7th piece

To: "the person"

A sunny clear morning... Woke up early to write this because forgotten to write it yesterday night cause of too tired and exhausted, very sorry.. So tired...because of burning over much energy yesterday... Yesterday, finally, had the chance to take a deep breath under the clear blue water, deep inside the water...he...finally heard his heartbeat..with a moderate rhythm...when he close his eyes inside the deep water and think of the person..., the person almost take his breath away..but..satisfied...even that he almost drown..cause at this moment, he knows that when he was thinking of the person, his heartbeat will increase, and that brings out the meaning that he had already leave a place in his heart for the person... He was hoping that the person will imagine about this letter after wake up from bed...

from: "the boy"

The Missing Letter :6th piece

To: "the person"

Almost the same time at the same place.... Today, the weather was very nice, grey cloud surrounding the bright star.., clear blue mixed the true black covered the whole sky.., as the cold wind blows by..he looked at the pure white moon brightly shines.. he thought for a moment and what is in his mind is.." your beautiful smile are almost just like the person.." the boy says to the moon.. Felt sorry for himself burning not enough energy today...hoping that the person will forgive him.. Lastly..one sentence flew into his mind..."even know that i doesn't know u miss me or not, but.., i'm clear with myself...i really miss you...". This letter was planned to send to a person, without an address...will it success?

from: ''the boy''

The Missing Letter :5th piece

To: ''the person''

Another late night with blur moon covered by clouds.. Wasting a lot of energy today,worthy.. trained himself to be as strong as possible to protect the person... Day 5, today, he actually wanted to gift the person a stork of roses with a small message written on a card, but..he can't seems to find a pretty rose to compare it with the person, so he rather walking around his house ,watching the roses and thinking of the person.. Tired after burning most of the energy...worthy for this 1 reason.. hoping that he can't protect that person from anything even sacrifice himself..

from: "the boy"

The Missing Letter :4th piece

To: ''the person''

Midnight... silence night,warm.. Disappointed day again..finally,he went to the nearest river by walking a long distances, but, when he reaches there.. the river was dried.. darn.. can't heard his own heartbeat again..lost, sad, disappointed, feeling down..'i just wanted to drown myself awhile to make me clear about something, why is this happening..?' the boy said.. How is life without heartbeat.. how is life without a complete heart shape..? how.. The fourth day had reach, still hoping for the same thing, will the person knows about this letter without address....

from:''the boy''

The Missing Letter :3rd piece

To: ''the person''

Few more minutes to 12, medium rain... Day 3, still thinking of the same thing, don't worry, will keep on the good work.. He, actually wanted to hold a breath in the cool water today, hoping that with only heartbeat, he can sense the person heartbeat..but..failed..can't find a lake ,river,sea or a pool nearby.. disappointed.. so, how are u there? the boy asked.. even though u can't hear and see the truth of the boy's heart.. beating..slowly...almost can't catch the last breath... Hope that one day, the person can understand and clear about the rhythm of the heartbeat..

from: ''the boy''

The Missing Letter :2nd piece

To: ''the person''

Night, not a cold or hot weather,normal.. It's already day 2, sorry for the late inspiration. It's only 2 day, had already can't barely think and feels the appearances of the person he thinks about, cause of distance, maybe...too far apart... maybe so... Sorry.., sorry for having a blur vision to think of you, he said.., never-mind, luckily,the boy had few of the person's memories, never-mind, he won't forget that person, never-mind, he will force himself and swear to never-ever forget about that person..
from: ''the boy''

The Missing Letter :1st piece

To: ''the person''

It's almost night, warm day.. A sudden inspiration comes after woke up in the morning on bed. Writing these letter it's to represent the days a boy being far apart from a person... not a very special person for the boy but special enough to let him lost.. This, was the first letter he wrote to that person secretly and without an address, hoping very much that the person can feel the appearance of this message..
from: ''the boy''

A story begins...

Once upon a time, in no where, without a time, unknown place, a young man...found an old steel box inside an old house's storage. Without waiting and thinking, he opened the box, no magical or curse affect like fairy tale, what's contain inside the box was just pieces of old missing letter...almost blurred and dusty..but quite meaningful..

LOL, just a notice..

YO! guys and gals, this post below is my 1st chinese wording post,cause i feel tht chinese wording sometimes brings powerful meaning n words.. hope u can enjoy it, and btw.. so sorry for those who can't read well chinese ,lol...>.

战!

''地球是很危险的, 快回火星吧. . '' 瞒喜欢这句的. .

我的好兄弟们最近都喜欢用这句话来形容一些比较特别的人. .

但是, 这句只是一点点的连关到我今天想写的话题. .

战争. ., 是很恐怖, 很残忍的. .

你不知道, 你几时会死 , 几时你会受伤, 有没有活下的机会. .

战场上, 快刀枪击大炮原子弹火箭等. . 随时都会击中我们. .

混乱的战争里, 有时误杀自己的同伴, 是难免的. .

但是, 这还不是最惨的, 只不过是混乱中的误杀,算了. .

最惨的, 自己攻自己人,背叛国家,兄弟战兄弟,或者是眼前朋友竞是敌人. .

为什么会出现敌人? 间单来说, 因为有了残暴的战争. .

那为什么战争会发生? 重点在这里. .

目地? 完成自己的要求, 心愿, 得到他们想拥有的, 成就. .

为了拥有一切, 拥有自己想要的, 他们愿意牺牲. .

就好像争霸一个大地盘, 一个胜利者, 一个弱者. .

最后, 不是天注定就是命运, 你的就是你的. .

不是你的, 一定死在战争当中. .

如果能在战场上坚持到最后, 你的牺牲, 是值得的. .

至少你. . 尽力了. . 再战场上勇往直前, 身上的伤与血. . 值得. .

就算我知道. . 我会因为快刀枪击大炮原子弹火箭中击而死. .

我都会努力的冲, 牺牲得直得一点. . . . 绝不放弃直到最后, 死的满足. . .

another inspiration...

Sometimes, the world is cruel..
Sometimes, fate is just a fake..
Sometimes, loves can't last long..
Sometimes, fairy tale is just a story..
Sometimes, destiny is just an illusion..
Sometimes, dream is only our imagination..
Sometimes, life is just meaningless..
Sometimes, unpredictable things happen..
Sometimes, people's attitude change..
Sometimes, we are speechless..
Sometimes, sacrifice are needed..
Sometimes, expressing emotion rocks..
Sometimes, miracle happens in front you..
Sometimes, inspiration comes in sudden..
Sometimes, time lead us to answers..

But....it's only sometimes...in anywhere,everywhere,anytime,anyplace...

appreciate what's in your life , chances, choices, path, fate, love, destiny, and your own life...

Poem created by me..

Hmm.... hie to all my viewers , n thx for the supportings, during these 2 weeks, i completed this 2 poem when i was free.. hope all my viewers like it...>

To be a success TEEN,
we must be KEEN.
Lots of places we had BEEN,
most of the places we had SEEN.
Plant the world with more BEAN,
so that we can see more GREEN.
Fall asleep in class we have to LEAN,
cause we don't know what teacher MEAN.
Always try to keep urself CLEAN,
maybe u will be crown as king or QUEEN.

(this 1st poem here i created during on my history class, not so well created i think><)

Controling my emotion i'll TRY,
telling myself i won't CRY.
I'm still a single lonely GUY,
who sometimes tries to FLY.
Messaged someone on JULY,
i'm so lucky i get their REPLY.
During shopping don't be SHY,
but just buy what u need to BUY,
There's a way to make food DRY,
necessary to take a deep FRY..

(this 2nd poem here i had this inspiration when i was bathing n created it in sentences when i wrote this post..)

lol.. the end, hope everyone likes it, i had tried my best in it...><)

late night wordings....

(try to read it in ur mind n try to combine the feelings when i wrote this)..about 3:45am, lately night, almost left me alone...at a corner, with my pc...thinking...taiping... clicking... (stunned n blur awhile) wait...on my facebook... bored of those quiz... very very tired.. but, my hand still wanna taip... nvm, just a short passage, i tell myself... talking too much about the word ''love'' these days... wonder why... again my head abit dizzy.. very tired actually, 'stop it !' my hand n eyes wont listen..continue... i keep explaining what's love for me in my opinion, someone agree, someone not, honestly, i just simply explaining it from what i felt the meaning of the word 'love' about.. in the other way the say, still lost n struggle in searching the true meaning.... wait a minute..making this passage as short as posible... okay... i noe tht someone or somebody keep advise me to cheer up or some words show supportive, truely thx to my friends, but, this..is me, i always always wanna talk more about tht kind of feelings n expression, but... i dun think much ppl would like to sit down n hear me say the whole day, u will get bored... whats the prove, 1... just like this long passage, i ''think'' ,most of them will skip read skip skip read... i can see it, its happens n i get complain from the post before... tht's why i said... .....stop! ur short passage becoming long passage d, i tell my hand... k, let's go ending... conclusion, even i still cant find the TRUE meaning of LOVE, but i can EXPRESS all my FEELINGS truely... its just depends on how the reader's response n understand about a long passage create by a guy during midnight... finally, i can rest... it's already 4:05am...nites all n myself...take care my dear friends...apologize for my readers cause my naughty hand taip so long until making ppl eyes blur><...

sudden inspiration..

tell me...

anyone.....

how to have.....

a person....

to care , listen, share n love..... ,

searching in the silent tunnel....

looking in the deep forest....

scare and affraid...scare i lost in way n lose myself...

but.., every fairytale.. had its starting...n ending...

happily ever after or sadness alone....

depends on how the story begins.....

depends on how u control ur future....

actions is not necessary always...

cause its fail sometimes, dun worry....

stand up again, u still have 2nd chance...

lonely...try to forget this word....

u still have ur friends , relative n family...................


stop....hold on...

sry for putting it too far.....

back to my question on top.....

how....

answer: searching for it....

what i noe for now is....

let time pass....

wait ur fade n destiny comes...

be patient...even u feel pain to wait...

one day...

answers will reveal in front u...

n thts..will be the word of 'true loves'...

(wish all my fren can live happily ever after for those who had couple n good luck on the searching of princess/prince for those single like me....)


So....dissapointed with myself...

T.T why am i dissapoint? because... see the blog before this... 1st time create english lyrics... looks okok nia to me... in the other badly words... sucks>.<>
Lol, kla just joking... erm anyway, not to blame all my friends no leave comment, they no leave comment got many many reason de.... 1st, busy, 2nd, no time see, 3rd, dun noe what to say, 4th, didn't notice, 5th, late oni see, 6th ,no PC, 7th, many assignments, 8th, no mood to see, 9th, lazy to online see, 10th, dunnoe how to see or dunnoe what it means, hahahaha!!! see soo many reason le... so, this post main point is.... i wanted to say,... '' come back, my supporter...i miss u all so much>.<'' lol... so swt...=.=

Bored, created something..

Yo~! guys n gals, too bored, too stress these days, many assignment n job to do, argh..!! erm i'm back for now , once awhile... just now, thinking of changing the lyrics of few songs, chinse songs... not too pro in changing it as for english also not bad only, just give it a try...hmm.. i guess ''i had a dream'' from westlife most of them heard before right..? so, decided to use this music changing the lyrics, title: 'a friend's-ship', hope u like it...:


..... I have to think, a song to sing, to let u know, my destiny, thinking of the first time, when we talk along, try to know each other, start to get along, i believe in friendship, something fills my life with everything, i believe in friendship, when i realise is right for me,* i sail the ship, with my friendship..[oh yeah]

.....i sail the ship, effort between, won't sail alone, without a team, and the destination, makes it worth a mile, crossing all the challenge, takes another miles, sailing on.. my friend-ship , something fills my life with everything, i believe in friendship,when i realise is right for me, i sail the ship, with my friendship.. i have to think, a song to sing, to let u know, my destiny, backwards to the old time, chatting side my ears, playing all together, spending all the time..i believe..... in friendship, something fills my life with everything, i believe in friendship, when i realise is right for me,* i sail the ship, with all my teams..(x2) [oh..]


all done thinking n write it in half hour, lol, tired, sleeping soon.. btw, if u really never heard this songs before, go visit http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=5Zd6oocf0lk&feature=related... k guys n gals, chaooo seeya...>.^

I'm BACK!!!! for awhile..=.= (title: Expressing my own feelings)

Hmm, yo everyone.. its been a looong time i stopped my blog.. i guess most of them noe, i really really busy after i started my college life... Hmm, actually in this post i have not much thing to write, just... actually when i started my college life... ermm, i feel happy, fun..making friends n enjoy the study life again after a looong holiday..but its kinda like normal happy tht only leave a smile behind it.. everything seems to be very very complicated as days goes by, confuse, lost n busy... work work n work... argh! not to say i dislike to do assignment or homework, but, it keeps on coming n coming...darn it! very tired..n my body goes weaker n weaker... Many problem occur, healer like my friends can only heal me part of it.. few parts still remain unknown answers.. what i can do is only wait...waiting for the time, let it goes by.. waiting for the time so i can meet someone, waiting for the time so i can have someone... waiting.. waiting... n waiting.. let the time ticks, so i can think n search for my own answers tht no one understands........

Sad>.<

Hey guys and gals, its, me again, erm.. still dissapoint about my blog, always so quiet de, what i want is comment also get nth.. haiz.. nvm, it's my fault cause never update everyday right, very sorry la.. Btw, this post just wanna inform my supporter that, i will be posting lesser post d cause assignment coming ,and there's a 'storm' coming.. so, thx for all the support and don't stop supporting me, i love u all, muacks^^

College~

Yo, my friends, i'm back.. Phew, 2 days of orientation was totally fun even though there nothing so special about,what i enjoy most is knowing more friends at there, cool, almost all of their name i knew well cause of some activities, not bad...^^ By the way, quiet much ''leng lui'' there.. nice^^and i know all their names as well..lol.. Hmm.. wednesday finally starts the first class, and we are getting close wif many friends d, wow tht feeling i wanted for about almost more than 4~5 months ago.. finally.. college life, i really have to enjoy it nice... erm.. 1st class was quiet relaxing ..but, our lectures starts to giving up works and assignments d, omg, i hope it won't add my stress to the maximum point .. Hey, guys and gals, my friends and all and all of my closeset friends,and all my kai mei... enjoy ur college life like me, enjoy ur ur assignments or presentation or whatever( omg, can't even imagin how to enjoy it), in our memories we are still close together, forever bestfriends^^.... woots... bye now..on my way to make my 1st research d, tatas^^

HIS life ( last chapter: Just the Beginning)

July 5, tomorrow... new life starts.... the new him a.k.a me, will t=be fighting for everything.. try hard to study.. try hard to do what i want...find what i need to find, serching.. i wanna be SUCCESS ! ... haiz.. i will try hard.. remember 1 thing friends.. my blog will be update once awhile in case i very busy, sorry, keep on the good work to me and my friends.. had not much thing to said d, felt kind of nervous tomorrow start school d.. gratz.. finally..><..cya again my blog..END..

(Lastly.. THX very much for all the supporting for my whole story, i wanted to thx to me, and thx to myself and thx to dad for the pc, and thx my mum for letting me online, thx for my friends support, thx to me and me and me><>

HIS life (chapter 31: one more day)

July 4, (yawn...) Hmm.. 1 more post before going to the ending.. still,felt like not much reader.. nvm.. i knew there will be some reader who reads and support without leaving any comments or notices.. forget it.. can express all his feeling his life in this blogger, tht way than enough.. dun wanna talk about today, cause today is just like another normal day.. hate it when repeating=.= ... Now, his mind is totally blank.. what's inside is only ''pc internet''... haiz.. what to do, tried to touch the book but sometimes it 'grow thorn on it' , what he mean is hardly read it...>< felt.. speechless... can talk more about today... can't even know what to say.. dun know what feeling should he express... argh.!! forget it.. tht's all for today..shorter simpler better...

HIS life (chapter 30:actually, too tired)

July 3, ACTUALLY should be a very very happy and fun day for today ....but.. some...problem.. make today become a happy day only... dun wanna talk much.. make it simple... Today, one of their friends planned or organized to watch movie at JJ today, actually ,still dunnoe who's the organizer.. hmm... actually, should be someone fetching, but went he said he wanna drive out, he become the 'victim'.. fetch 4, bring 1 back, then, half way to their destination, went back to the 1 tht back home.. actually he must bring tht friend tht back early and had change mind wanted to go de.. but, when reach tht friend house, saw tht friend drive own car out.. okay.. nvm.. friends are still friends.. wow, so confuse of what he done... finally, and finally, he and his friends reach thier destination... bought the ticket of the show tht quite hard to buy.. ''transformer: revenge of the fallen'' cool... he wanted to watch it long time ago.. it was a very very very nice show.. love it so much.. after almost 3 hour.. back home...get some rest, night still got event..

Night, went to botanic bkb, but he had forgot something, forgotten to fetch 1 of his friends, actually he accidently forgotten, cause afternoon conversation very confuse and blur, and didn't hear clearly, and no one tells him.. sorry my friend.. and also sorry cwei cause letting u went far to fetch tht friend again, really sry, cause his car really out of petrol d, afternoon giv ppl 'play'.. haiz... NVM lar....a little problem sometimes do occur, but friends still are friends, hope no heart feelings can d..><>.<

HIS life (chapter 29: empty )

July 2, about 3 more days to end this story... wish to have something happy happen everyday, and have something more special the post out everyday, but, had failed to do so.. cause this what we called life... what we giv to life ,how we create it, it gives u back.. just like... when do nth at home, always being lazy... life gives u the word ''bored''... tht's his thinking... wondering who else thinking the same thing...his life, is just like...'everyday is everyday', almost everyday is a normal everyday, get it? Hmm.. don't wanna talk much,cause it just an another normal day.... just describe what happen today...too freely.... 1st, bored.. 2nd, online.. 3rd, very bored.. 4th,eat.. 5th, rest or sleep.. 6th, online.. 7th, toilet.. 8th, very very boring.. 9th, watch tv.. 10th, sleep.. OMG , 1 day can do 10 things, superb=.=.. actually, seriously, felt himself getting crazy and crazier... whats the reason..? remain undefine...no event at night, so went bed early, but with his eye open...=.=zzzzz

HIS life (chapter 28:special July)

July 1, another new month....hmm.. time are passing by..just think of the past..thought the time pass by very slow...but now...nah.. just wanna say time passes day by day with a glimpse.. sometimes..thought tht time passes by the faster they are, the better they are..but sometimes..in the other thought... hmm... lets talk about something special..in this july chapter.. always talk the same thing with normal life will be bored..

July... at 1st think about something..no, not something , is too many things.. 1st just to inform tht the story of ''HIS life'' will end on july 6, dun miss it... 2nd, just wanna let everyone know tht the story 'him' is = to ''me'', very obvious..^^, k 3rd, 'he' is still a emo thinless fatless confuse lost and brainless single guys, maybe another obvious part.. 4th.. er.. still thinking...

K, i wont miss every part when talking about HIS life, so watever it is, i still have to describe the story today, in special edition, today i will make the word 'he' or 'him' or 'his', becoming myself.. and use special WORDing to write it... hope u enjoy it..

1st of July, time today was prefect, eyes open and climb down from my bed, early than the time i set.. switch on the connection, nice, fast connecting today.. played..wif friends.. About 1 o'clock when out, watching my friends eat while i'm drinking , cause house got cooked d..i enjoy being with my friends even doin nothing when i'm free.. 2 o'clock... fetch few friends back home, only till home, back to my connection..

Until night, actually feeling VERY moody and emo during evening..cause of something unexplainable..try to forget what had happened...just a little problem...solve lastly.. Night, doing something related to my hobbies at Botanic's Garden, nice shooting today, but played 2 rounds only, meaningful 2 rounds, laugh all the way while playing...i really enjoy it.. 10:45.. went to a place we often went to , drink.. drank 2 cup of ice milk tea.. lucky i can control myself from eating even i straving, or else.. money will be having wings and flew away from my wallet, and also, the gravitation pull for me will be increasing.. back home in time.. when i step into my house, the time prefectly shows 11:45pm.. nice, still had time to get back my connection..cause my modem is almost like 'cinderellla' , after 12, can't connect d..

Tht's all folks, hope u can slowly enjoy reading it even it is long, cause of special edition, it should be like tht, sry... Grats and thx to everyone who spend time to read my post, i appreciate it very much.. thx alot for the supportive..^^..>.<

HIS life (chapter 27: short and normal)

June 30, woke up, doing same thing...very normal..normal...too normal... doing nth, almost whole day doing same thing, only afternoon, chong, fetch him out, eating, but he doesn't eat.. cause ate d.. drink only.. then chong went his house, taught chong some gaming things.. then.. after about 1hour, back home d, chong back home, cause he is in his home d...lol.. then.. bro came back.. pass the pc to his bro, get some rest..

Night.. very special.. cause no going bkb.... hahas.. at home.. do nth..nth.. then watch tv.. then nth... nth.. then sleep=.=... phew.. what a day..

HIS life (chapter 26: Jusco)

June 29, becoming more and more lazy.. started to get bored wif his blog.. forget what time he woke d, but nvr forget to online when he woke up, afternoon, about 3pm, his friends fetched him to JJ, almost suddenly cause just only call him.. hmm.. followed his friends, only cwei bought a book.. then go 'shopping' aimming for what we wanna aim^^.. ate pizza, actually he only had a mushroom soup cause ate at home d.. then... walk a while...then back home d..

Night still the night...bkb.., dun wanna talk too much, but tht caleb late again, nvm i forgive him, cause he is the driver, lol..hahaz.. then have horlicks ice at the same 'mamak'... to day back home very early, 11:30 reach home d... hmm... started to feel everyday is just like everyday..=.=

(sry for the post of the picture and photo cause haven get those picture for his friends, he try to get it, ASAP, thx for the understanding^^, hope everyone will still support this blog><)

HIS life (chapter 25: AND1 )

June 28,woke up about 10, feeling very moody, not feeling well, maybe sleeping very not well last night.. tried to be relax.. after about 1 hours, he finally calm down, about 2pm, his friends fetch him to JJ at Bukit Tinggi, cause today there having AND1 basketball competition there, cool.. this year jersey not bad, quite nice and cool.. the basketball also, not bad.. and also.., there got many nice 'toilet' he really like tht cutie and short gal><

Night, doin nothing....went eat dinner wif family d, then back home d, rest awhile then went bed d.., cause too tired d, sleep very early....about 11pm sleep d.. normally about 1am only went to bed or even no sleep, wake up online...

HIS life (chapter 24: canteen day)

June 27, sry for the delay, quite busy these day, Hmm.. forget it, let's talk about today,June 27, his thinking ,starting to fade , getting more lazy.. argh.. Woke up about 10, online is the normal thing to do.. after about 1 hours, getting prepare d, cause friends are coming to fetch him to 'castle'.. actually is smk istana canteen day.. they went there without having breakfast 1st.. hiaz.. really sry.. hate tell long story again...skip.. 1 thing i wanna say is.. there's a old tuition friend, a girl.. tht girl.. erm.. hard to explain, he...fell for her before..and now.. when he passes by her, felt a unexplainable feeling, just like.. kinda nervous..kinda shy to talk... argh, is this what they call it love feeling? haiz.. forget it.. nvm.. this kind of felling hard to combine when it is far apart...><

Night, bkb at same place again at almost same time, doing same stuff and almost same friends.. tht night, his friends teached him few skill but still he must learn more.. still the lowest ranking of all.. about 11pm, went same place 'limteh' again.. watch michael jackson show.. sad. MJ pass away few days ago.. hope MJ r.i.p , the king of pop, 1st moon walker...

HIS life (chapter 23: again)

June 26, trying to go as short as posible.. Woke about 10+ online d, then followed a bunch of friends for breakfast, after breakfast, went down PJ again, help his ,cwei, getting some forms, thought was very long in time, but after paid 2 hours of parking ticket to avoid from 'saman' , 15 minutes done d. siens..=.= lucky not him pay all^^i only pay 40 cents, other his friends , chan pay..80 cents.. haiz.. wasted him and chan's coin...sad..after tht, when sunway again, still many story here again, lazy to explain all, but 1 word.. mission failed..lol, XD..walked until tired d, went back ..

Night, just like last night, just slightly change some friends... he had only 30% form tht night.. ok la, still got score.. yet, cwei was the MVP=.= after finish, went 'lipas' again.. ''limteh'' again.. money fly again.. haiz.. back home about 12, lucky mum no scold BADLY again.. lol

HIS life (chapter 22: only night)

June 25, dun feel like wanna tell about the story happened from morning until afternoon..cause,... everyone knows what will he do..normally...

Night, followed a bunch of friends, botanic, basketball, today having quite plenty of friends coming, almost more than 10, fun playing.. dunnow why, after 2~3 rounds, he confuse+blur d.. -_-tired.. after that, went tht 'mamak' again..about 11pm, mum calling,.. wants him to be back d, =.= pls.. he want only SOME freedom man..>< , back home about 12, get scolding abit, nvm.. felt a little unexplainable moody..emo.. unknown to reason, maybe.. too tired, tired..very...tired... to be himself -_-... unspeakable.................

HIS life (chapter 21:art)

June 24, forcing himself to wake up very early, about 7:40am..cause have program today.. an art workshop were held at his and his 3 friends future college, PJCAD.. it's something like an exibition or 'ceramah' activities, not so clear also.. thought was something big, but when reach there after 45 minutes on the road, only kitty 2, 3 tail , chinese meaning.. lol, haiz.. since at there d had to attend.. after his friend, cwei, register d, when to the workshop d, then... very long story here, make it few words, er.. make some art work, listen to some advice ,and.. learned something.. tht's all actually still many story de, lazy tell all.. oh btw, his fren eileen, found a new nick name cause she done a unforgetable things at there, ermm.. who wanna know what happen, ask him not her.. haiz.. tired.. almost half day listen the teachers at there talk talk talk, then do art work..=.= lucky there had already prepared food for us, or else sure pengsan cause morning didn't eat breakfast.. until 4pm++ ,finally, can back d..yeah.. when he taking the car, suddenly saw 1 white paper on his wiper, walk closer, oohh, cool, 'saman'.. rm30.. sure giv mum diao=.=haiz.. paid d le.. 1 hour=.= lol.. nvm, then... they felt straving, so.. when sunway piramid eat,haiz.. money~~ where are u..=.=he has to sit down see them eat..=.= drink only..got eat abit , cause his friends chong pity him, so giv him eat little..>< after eat, then back home d.

Actually today night, he should go botanic play bkb with his friends de, but..rain.. and thunder also, then.. cancel lor.. but after about 15 minute, few of them say got go..his friends, cwei, chan and seng.. hmm.. he wonder they really go.. cause got thunder, even no rain the court remain wet.. lazy go.. stay at home..tired whole day d=.= zzz but, still abit active, dunnoe why o.O?

(few photo will be be posted up as soon as posible..)

HIS life (chapter 20: swim)

June 23, woke very early , about 8am.. dunnoe why.. can't sleep well, then.. haiz.. he tried his best dun use the word 'online' ,but.. nvm, er.. switch on the pc.. better..then played few rounds game then friends call to eat lunch.. hmm, nice, today afternoon didn't cook, hooray..asked mum for rm5 then join his friends at sentosa eat..chit-chat while eating.. After tht.. when back home.. switch on again.. Until about 4:30pm, friends asked him wanna join them go for swimming at shah alam or not, wow, he really like swimming very much, sure go, prepare d , wait for his friend ,chong come fetch him d, then go le..till there after about 25 minutes, but.. haiz.. have to wait 1st, can't swim yet, cause the ticket are counting the swimming session, they have to wait till 7pm, nvm, can wait, go drink 1st, ate a little, charge energy 1st.. Finally, waited for 20 minutes, can start swim d, the water was not too bad but, too much of chloroid or chlorine, lol forget d, and the water was too warm, not so nice.. and also not much ''toilet'' ,hehe, tht's their comment, not him only..quiet deep at the deepest sector, lol, who dunnoe deepest sector very deep..=.= but still, he can swim, not bad skill.. hmm.. but his friend, chong, will be 65% dying and 75% drowning when he was at tht sector, cause chong can't swim well, actually he himself also can't swim prefectly.. Hmm.. after swam for about 1 hour ++ , went eat at old JJ, KFC, he didn't eat much cause mum asked him to come back eat.. have to listen..he is a good boy..hehe=.= swt.. Back home about 10:45pm cause of tht chong lar, say have many free time, play wif them using the longest road fetch them back home=.= lol..nvm.. can safely till home can d, home sweet home..

HIS life (chapter 19: full day)

June 22, Hmm.. lets forget about the time d, hard to predict when will post up.. Today, woke up about 10am++ , guess what will he do 1st? right, online.. hmm never once didn't online..haiz.. playing wif friends online , then after about..11am++ his friends asked him to join them to KTV, at 1st, he felt, sawthroat, and.. out of credit, but since so much friends are going, he can't let them down, asked mum for rm10, then out to green box..sing alot of song, happy, funny, crazy..almost lost his voice there...and speaker almost crack..lol.. after KTV, walk around JJ then went gaming place, play few games.. until bored d.. then back home le..tht time is almost 7pm d..

He reach home about 7:30pm, almost forget, still have to play ball wif them at botanic, bath, eat a liitle , then rush go d..siting his friend ,caleb's car.. Hmm.. reach there too early, have to wait... nvm..after about 10 minutes finally all reach, then start play ball d..haiz.. he was quiet very active but the form... nvm , forget it.. After few rounds of sweating, went to 'mamak', they call it 'lipas' hmm.. he wonder why giv tht place tht weird name.. ordered 1 plate of 'indomee' and 1 'milo ais', cause dinner haven eat full, so mar order lor..cause his friend, caleb, 'belanja' mar..hehe.. THANKS very muchy caleb ^^ , he will 'belanja' u back de, when he rich...lol..

HIS life (chapter 18: dad's day)

June 21, honestly, he always post it after the next day, but it happens the day before, erm.. what hemean is.. it happens on June 21 but i post it at June 22, understand?.. Hmm, June 21, father's day, made a card-like 'thingy' for dad, cause no money buy things le>.<, woke up quiet late about 2 pm, actually is very late=.=.. then do nth, even forget about eating breakfast, start online le, hmm, he think he can open 7-eleven d, 24 open, lol, not tht worst la, 24 hours..=.=later electric 'kau lat', then.. until afternoon, finally got activity, dad bring him and his family to KEC, swimming, and planned to register as member at there, hmm.. he was the best swimmer... in his family only, hehe^^, swim quiet late.. swim half d, ate burger and muffins to recharge energy, oo, almost forget, his sister and brother, dunnoe how to swim, so he must teach and take care of them, hehe.. can bully them in water=.=, lol, k, talk about swimming, his sis kept scracth him when she going to drown, waa, pain, even pull his neck, almost can't breath.. lol..After swim then.. back home bring 2nd bro out eat , cause his 2nd bro didn't go , got meeting and training..eat d then back home, rest then sleep, lol.. what a day, happy father's day^^

HIS life (chapter 17: Short time)

June 20, dunnoe the time d, dun wanna see the time also...scare it will pass more faster.. still like few days ago..and normal.. normal.. very normal.., online...online.., nothing special.. Until night..., sorry he can't make it to bkb at night wif friends.. 2 reason, going out wif family and bored of goin cause too less ppl.. Hmm.. went JJ wif family, bought 1 Mp4 , lol.. then ate KFC...too delicious.. then, back home..tired..cause he is the driver.. wait, hold on, forget something, while he was on his way back home, suddenly.. 1 taxi driver put on middle finger on him angrily, he dunnoe why, but he because thinks he drive too slow, haiz.. tht's taxi driver was scary...what to do? mum n dad call him drive slower, then that taxi driver wants me to drive faster... siens.. stupid!@#$%^ taxi driver, so what?!, u got middle finger he no ar? !@#$%

HIS life (chapter 16: buddies.)

June 19, write this post at about 2:38am midnight , should be the next day d.. however, his story will not skip and his story must be things happen day by day..so, its June 19 1st... 9am plus, woke up, cause his friends had already invite him and other friends for breakfast... early morning..online d, most of them still sleeping, so have to wait..after found out few of them cant go .. planned to go for lunch, lol, actually.. is.. he and few of his friends wait from 9am+ to 12+ de, while waiting, some of them still online playing online games...include me, hehe... hmm, nvm.. afternoon lunch also not bad, went pizza hut at sentosa with some friends, eat happily and deliciously? its tht the best decribe?lol, forget it.. wow, seriously... wallet left rm4 nia, rm4... need to use until july college starts..thts mean.. almost half month..right.. he wonder.. how to use rm4 in half month and still need to goin out with friends...? 4 cups of ''teh ais''?... rob or be a begger? lol... money!!!where are u?!!!..

Yeah.. whole afternoon playing warcraft dota with his friends..lol.. until night, went bkb again.. actually he dunnoe it should be a yeah or siens... haiz.. must go,if no go, my weight will be gain more, haiz.. but, his father n his mother doesn't like his always go play bkb at night, say.. it's dangerous at night and the air now are polluted, their word are correct but..he will take care himself n be caution wan mar...dun worry, still have many friends here...Hmm..today have to back home b4 11:30, but he back home on 12, so.. kena his father 'diao' again lor.. what to do.., still dun understand, why only him among the friends cannot late abit back home.. pls.. even know sometimes he act like a kid, and face looks like a kid, but he is not a kid anymore, dun over worry him...>.<

HIS life (chapter 15:another day)

June 18, it happens..without a time.. woke up,early, but fall down on bed again, continue sleep.. until about 12, only official wake.. lol.. hmm today just like another normal day, wake, eat~~bla~bla~bla, then sleep.. it should be like this and it must be like this...what to do? beside online? for him.. think of nothing yet... haih..online whole afternoon..nth special happens.. normal situation..

Night, still like last night, repeating the same word.. basketball.. but, today.. i seriously back home lately.. luckily, his parents all sleep le.. phew..time is about 12:45am... so late, can't blame, ''lim teh'' mar.. cause they play to long at the court today d..he was very active on tht court, but, vision were lost.. accurancy lost.. what the hell...! nvm..forget it.. Btw, thx.. Mr Chan for ''belanja'' him ''lim teh'' and also eat something... XD ..lol...

HIS life (chapter 14: driving day )

June 17, it should be midnight, and it should be June 17.. 11am, he woke up, have to be the driver, fetching 3 friends, went PJ, longest way he ever drive to.. whole way following a crazy driver, as know as his friend also, phew.. dangerous, almost like fast and the furious.. after about an hour, finally. safely, reach their destination, acctually not really their destination, cause they went Mr .chan a.k.a his friend ,college 1st, hmm... college surrounding very not bad, nice, cool.. got many cafe' and also 'toilet', haha, the word 'toilet' is new for him, its actually had another meaning tht created by his friends, lol, hard to explain.. ask somebody who knows ba if u wanna know...^^ then, ordered some drinks at station 1, after hanging round awhile, went back to PJ College, cause, one of his friend decided to register, and 1 of his friends maybe register..wow, nice, better all register there, can meet each other everytime^^hehe.. About 3 o'clock went down Subang, fetch eugene, a.k.a his hansome friend , at his college, segi, not bad also his college, quiet much 'toilet' ^^, after tht, he and his friends went neighbour, summit, ate KFC.. delicious.. then... decided to watch movie.. but...most of them no credit d, and.. summit's ticket should be very ex, on their way home.. they finally, make a decition,went JJ at Bukit Tinggi, watch 'Terminator Salvation' wooo.. cool show, excited.. how about the credit? have that couple support, problem slove, THX very much^^ Finish watching.. went back home...omg tired.. cause today is the day he drive most longest time in his life..lol

Reach home, finally, lie down on a sofa, resting, then.. his phone rangs, ''hello, eh,wan go basketball later mar? at botanic..'' when he 1st heard, he felt tired and ignored, but after about half an hour, he change his mind, cause he thinks that he will be doin nothing during that night, fetched his friend caleb, then went to the court, drive again..=.= hmm, today form at the court was slightly normal, maybe its his tiredness make him strengthless.. lol, today had to back home early also, cause dad back home d, luckly no go 'lim teh' back home in time, 11:30pm, hahas.. and felt really TIRED d...zzz

HIS life (chapter 13: Foood n Feeed )

June 16, one more day write it in the right time, almost 4:25, hard to see... today, wokw up not early, not late , about 9am can online d, yeah.. modem quai lor... kay.., wonder why he woke up at that time? because.. yesterday, they had already agree going joining his friends went to ate Bak Kut Teh.. waa.. empty stomach go, very starve d, still, have to wait 1 of our friends, still on the way waking up, lol, k la, wait la, friend mar.. but, at last he and his other friends also go to the restoran 1st, lol.. wait for about 15 minute, still haven come, order 1st lor... but.. finish 2 plate of rice d only come =.= lucky he and his others friends at there de didn't finish de dry and wet 'bak kut teh'^^, hahas...Hmm... that ''bak kut teh'' at old sentosa KFC across the road there de not bad, quiet delicious.. but, eat finish d, little heart pain lar.. cause... rm10++ flew d>.<

Almost 4 hour online, siens...boring... not only him... many freinds also boring, chong worst.. can't online.. lol, taste it ba chong, u never suffer it b4, wakaka...! Hmm, evening, went 'pasar malam' with his friend, caleb, 'jalan jalan' awhile, caleb 'belanja' him 1 cup of sugar-cane , thx.. but, he.. not so happy is hor, when talking to him( caleb), like talking to wind.. please lar, he is also human k, respect while he is talking to you.. haiz.. nvm la, forgive..haha, not big problem... Doing notning after that, start boring again d lor=.= HAIHZZZ..


HIS life (chapter 12: luck-LESS day)

June 15, forget about the time.. these day his modem being a bad boy, be good la...modem, sayang you mar...haiz.. Kay... lets talk about the story today.. Woke up quiet lately.. about 11:15am, remember his friend , chong, wanna go to PJ college, as known as their future college, cause the other 2 friend maybe going to taking this course.. but don't think so Cwei, will take this course, cause he heard cwei said b4 he wanna study buisness, hmmm, forget about it..then ...on our way to PJ..no no, actually it's on the way to subang, cause fetching our handsomess friend go his college^^,.. ''bam~!'' , what's happening, he himself watch LIVEly in front of his eyes,... acccident lor.. haiz.. gratz.. chong, u had broked ur 2nd time record, but.. this time it's really not ur fault.. it's that unhonestly indian fault=.= grr... haiz... repot or pay? repot..should be that indian wrong more, but risky, cause 1 lisence 1 year plus.. 1 lisence 15 years , how to do... pay lor.. cause tht !@#$% indian fellow also say he not wrong.. then being like very scare ppl know it's his fault..haih... wat to do.. felt pity tht chong rm600 flew away, nvm, u rich mar.. haha, jkjk.. left about less than rm50 for spending this month, if for him, rm50 is more than enough in this ''doing nothing a home'' de life le^^hehe

Night, yeah, mum let him go play basketball with friends at botanic le, but these time must early back home.. k lor.. hmm, today form was not to good, even playing online games also, lost few round... haih, bad condition...argh!!!! where is him? who is him? spiderman? haha, cold..=.= , after bkb, when mamak drink tea again lor, 'teh ais satu' , he really have to back home early this time, so... when back about 11:20 like tht, almost lost cause driving alone>.<

HIS life (chapter 11: one trip)

June 14, 10:12pm, finally, write it in a right time, not too late, not too early, great, connection nice.. sayang modem for today.. Woke up, very early, about 7am in the morning, the point is cause today his dad say wanna go to a... nice place..? i wonder... haha, actually he and his family are going to tanjong sepat, hmm... never been b4, quite surprise... till that destination after 1 hour half...tired.. but.. i was amazed after seeing that 5 star hotel, omg, nice, it will be prefect after finish build, hard to explain that place, wanna know more? visit www.sepanggoldcoast.com, must take a view of it, cause it's the 5 star longest coastal paradise in asia... cool.. After visiting, when for lunch at there, surely seafood, famous at there mar.. lol.. ate fish, prawn, crab, small oyster, right.. tht's what he mean for SEAFOOD.. =.= waa ate too much ,now think d still got some scare and geli about it.. after ate at beside the sea side, then back home le, sleep in the car all the way home ,tired..=.= zzzz

No more special story after back home about 4pm, just.. his modem naughty again... argh!! bad modem! can't play and chat wif friends online d>.< ... Oh, right almost forgotten, his friend, chong, too bored ..asked him out to JJ to meet chia wei , another friend..but tht's not the main point they went there, the main point is aim for...... haha dun tell u, only 3 ppl know..^^boys stuff, haha.. hmm.. walk for about 2~3hour then back d, follow his parents go out eat, he was sry for chong, cause his friend, chong, have to eat his dinner alone>.<...lol, tht's all ba for today ba^^

HIS life (chapter 10: unexpected)

June 13, forget what's the time d, cause my stupid connection really sucks, always error...haiz..so , postponed.. don't worry, memory still clear here.. June 13, he woke up quite early, try to test the connection, wanna online, chat, play, make other stuff like facebook.. phew, today his modem so good, so clever, nice modem... if not mistake.. 6~8am morning, 70% connection pass, 8~10am, 30% pass, 10~12am, 49% pass, after 12, 88% pass, until 3pm onwards, 30%~50% pass.. haiz.. sometimes hard to predict de...he hope can change TMnet modem to P1 modem, better connection...

Almost every afternoon doing the same thing, so dun need to talk to much,skip lor... Night, actually going to follow his 'brothers' go Basketball at botanic again de, but... got 2 reason, 1, just ate, very full, can't play ball, 2, his parent say wan go JJ, so he followed, cause, father said wan buy phone for me le, how can he don't follow...After JJ, back home, result... no phone...for now lar, cause his father asked him to think 1st, so he think lor, maybe got more choices mar..budget rm500 nia, sry ,no 'nia', should be rm500 oh~! haha ,lol..just like tht lor,not that dissapoint, just late abit buy nia..

HIS life (chapter 9: repeat)

June 12, should be finish it b4 12am midnight, but can't, connection sucks... still the same as always, online+online=online, haiz... he maybe will be 'dead' after seeing this month de electric bill.. he almost everyday argue wif brother and sister with 1 com,, haiz.. u think he wan de meh.. brother sister still can't think, they still young mar, can hav plenty of time to use com, he 'old' d le.. haiz.. now holiday, it's his ''head pain, confuse, boring'' day...haih.. (x10) today was like yesterday, almost everything happens the same, wake, bath, eat online, online, online, eat, toilet, watch tv , bath, sleep...lol, wad a life of him..

Night, can't go basketball with his 'brothers' le, sad.. cause yesterday too late back home give his mum 'diao', miss his ''brothers'', and... he miss the ball also...>.<>.<.. so... so what.. stay at home lar.. cry at home lar.. play with himself at home lar, haha, joking.. nvm, 1 day no go nia, still can survive...but... he still miss basketball very much le... ><

HIS life (chapter 8: normal)

June 11, wanna write is as soon as posible, but its already midnight, decided to write it next morning... yesterday, as know as June 11, nothing special for him, felt it quite boring, and don't think so it's quite,but very... still the same as he use to be, wake, eat, online, watch tv ,eat, bath, sleep.. anyone living the same life as him? don't think so for now.. Many of his friends says, ur time will come de, just need some time only, ya he really agree with that, just need time, be patient, wait... at that time, u wan bored also hard d... okay friends, surely trust you, he says..

Night, still like last night, playing basketball, same place, almost same time, he is not being late now, gather earlier. but, not like last night, can run freely, can play more game in high percentage, cause this night, was full of humans...like him=.=lol... i mean human like human lar.. forget it.. k, 1st round need to wait d, he and his friend , joel, wait patiently,but don't think they have time to be patient ,hahaz, nvm.. still have chance to play few round, he score about 3 to 4 points that night all add up, not bad lar, all 3 point shots.. After game, they went 'mamak' , watch WWE, and for sure..''limteh'' la, he had 2 cups of ''teh tarik'' and eat nothing, haih.. until almost 12am midnight d, receive 3 calls from mum, keep blowing him back home, not to say don't go home.. i just spend a little more time with friends only mar..nvm ba, still must listen to mum's word, cause he knows his mum will be worry if he haven back...><, he tried his best don't let his mum or dad be worry about him....

HIS life (chapter 7: unpredictable)

June 10, it happens, no time to post right away, postponed.. He went Jusco, fetch his friends, and also his brother, planned to watch movie at cinema, thought, the other friends already bought the ticket, no worries, but, after he and his friends met those others friends, realise they didn't bought any tickets, can't blame them, cause the lane was freaking long, longest he ever seen.. forget it, plan up something else, KTV at greenbox, why not, but unluckily..rooms are all full, what else can they do? nth lor..chat awhile, went gaming zone awhile, then back from JJ d. B4 back home, he and 2 of his friends went Pizza Hut at sentosa, what for? eat? of course man, or else what we can do there? playground?=.=lol.. while they were eating, er.. this part hard to explain, ok, omg the cheese powder, full tank becomes 1 over 5 , ate by him and his tall friend..lol after 3 of them finished their lunch, other friends finally came, nvm, join them, chat and watch them eat and also taking crazy photo, then he himself came out wif 1 fun activities, prank call, lol, quite fun, testing so much numbers^^ most of them are uncle sound, haha.. can't guess up any girls number, hehe.. after about 10++ number testing, tired, when back home..end. Btw,b4 that, forget to mention, 1 of the person among them in friends, long time no see de, pretty le, miss paula^^ someone among them had targeted her lor..hehe, guess who?not him himself=.=

Phew, dun wanna talk to much, so took a shortcut in this paragraph. At night, he and few of his friends went played basketball at botanics garden, that was his 1st time playing night basketball, lol, unfortunately, only 1 out of 4 spot-light lighted, quite dark, can't see clearly, but quite fun, and also that basketball court not bad...

(sry for those ppl who dun like to read long passage, really sry, cause i wanna express HIS daily life clearly, ps and sorry)

HIS life (chapter 6: create,creative)

June 9, going to be midnight,another story of his, went down PJ, college,with friends, decided to study interior design at PJCAD (PJ College of Art and Design) , no more other choice for sure.. after almost an hour of ''chating'' with 'the' guy at there, 'the' guy there asked he and his friends make something with a paper, ask them to be creative, do anything they wanted to do, he end up doing a weird house wif round roof, lol and one of his friend make a unstable table, and one more friend making star..lol.. After few minute of thinking he and one of his friend, chong, had sign up and registered , fees... 30k++ 3 years, not bad ba, register fee is rm550, rm200 is refundable, it's just for something like facilities at there, scare something lost or broken, will deduct from there, understand? Hmm..he decide to study there cause got few reason ba, surrounding not bad, got art feeeling, quite famous, quite easy to find, fees..okok la, got 25 years experiance.. something like tht ba...

He went back wif friends, felt abit starving, lol, one of his girl de friend, says she wanna got McDonalds, omg, he just ate 2 burgers and a bunch of france fried last night..=.= , nvm, cause he respect friends very much de, went McDonalds at Andalas, do u think he would eat burger set again?, pls la, will bored at food de le sometimes, ordered Oreo McFlurry , his favorite^^ while he and his friend sat down and eat, chat about something, (too much too say [skip]) , he and his friend ,chong, decided to bring tht girl de friend go see psychologist, lol, cause her whole brain is only 1 type of word, ''no'',''can't'', or others negative thought, pls... be positive, face ur life step by step, belief in urself, trust the person u had to trust...tht's all he can say...sry can't help u much more le, be positive and u will see the differents in ur life...

HIS Life (chapter 5:unspeakable)

June 8, actually June 9 cause it's already 12:20am, but telling the story of his on June 8.. not tired YET, still can manage to finish this post.. still the same, he often online, today almost half day online, main point? have fun? spare time? make him happy? maybe?? still can find the right answer. Bored, facing the com, typing the keyboard, clicking the mouse, what can he do besides that? reading? depends on his mood.. watch show? what show should he watch.. hear songs? not everytime... others? still searching..

Went ''lim teh'' with his friend , felt abit moody, abit emo, forget what's the reason d.. talk, chat, dunnoe whats going on with him... can't mix in the topic, can't be 100% interest about what they talk.. tired? dun think so.. just.. confuse.. stun.. bored... He felt abit jealousy about few of their friends speaking about interesting girls had interest on them... why should he be jealous? remains unknown... 

HIS life (chapter 4:Fun)

June 7, 9:04pm, 4th story.. yesterday, was a nice day for him... early morning, play basketball with a bunch of buddies, its really happy to be with them... u can feel the friendlyness and teamwork among his friends.. after few rounds of sweating, starving.. all when to the nearest kopitiam, 'kau shen' , chat, eat, drink, laugh, joke, smile... even know sweats are atill dripping.. u can't feel the tiredness, just...active, it makes u feel like... wanna have 1 more round of 5v5?... hard to describe...
love this kind of situation so much, dunnoe why..

Today, afternoon, was great, he followed his few friends, went 1 utama.. shopping? maybe.. eating? been d.. spare some boring time there? right... he was lucky that he had a chance to attend a game fest, by asiasoft, cause 1st time... not so...big event but, enough for him to say, ''coool~'', lol. took some goodies back, have a smile during having pizza with friends... this was the 3th time in his life he went 1 utama..nice day^^ Back home about 6pm++ , online, again, playing with friends, awhile, then, back to lonely again..lol , anyway, it was a nice and happy day for him in this 2 days.. 

HIS life (chapter 3:Problems )

June 6, lately... drafted yesterday, post today..he was quite fat last time, after that, he is getting slimmer,  maybe thinner than last time, but.. now...shape of last time are forming, MAYBE.. why?
sleep , eat, online, rest... repeating in almost whole week, not to say why can't he go exercise, he really willing to go ,but, too much reason through this problem.. 1, no friends, alone=boring, 2, weather, can't predict.. 3, lazy, always over-slept...other reason still searching... just can hope he can control on his eating...and try to have chance to exercise more..

Night, he fetched his friends, going out, chatting, at station 1.. along the road, stress are increasing, cause, he can't have a 100% vision to drive the whole way to destination.. At the station 1, he ordered, something light, smash potato n wu long tea... Darn it., money flowing again...,he wonder... when it will flow back to him again... Tired, alone, driving back home, late.. almost midnight 12.. before he reach home..., it was laughter, talkings, chatting, n maybe felt the existence of happiness, but.., now, while he stopped his cars... what surrounds is.. quiteness...soundless...nth...nth happens..

HIS life (chapter 2: soundless)

JUNE 5, 2009, almost 1:45pm, his second story...  handphone corrupted,damaged,spoiled, almost 1 week d..no one bother, even his parents..had to use old O2 phone, no chinese, lost all contact number, can't see chinses message.. who cares.. even got better phone, he found it quiet useless, always left it a side, waiting, nth happens, no events ,no activities.. no one call no one to sms.. isit no one care him? the answer is NO. many reason to this answer, less credit , helping parents, no free, studying, or busy online like him...  So, can't blame on anything, cause maybe some people are suffering the same situation like him..

Found out that lifestyle is almost related to songs he heard, just like (JJ-always online), and maybe..( JJ-期待爱 ), always online and waiting for love, surrounding so quiet,just like (Jay-安静), haiz.. dunnoe why, these days, got something wrong wif him,(lee hom-what's wrong with rock), still have plenty types of songs suites his life, and maybe other ppl life...but, sometimes, i heard nothing even the songs are played, why? cause..sometimes, i can't share the songs feeling wif other peoples, no one understand..so,sometimes,meaningful songs are meaningless for him.. always one word he wanna say, ..HAIHzzz


HIS life ( chapter 1:life starts wif.. )

JUNE 4, 2009, 4 o'clock sharp, he started his story here... this person, was a boy,who still learn to be a man, dislike lonely,hard to be alone, single won't effect him for now, often wasting alot of time infront of lifeless object that let him spend his time online, having fun, but it's only fun inside this lifeless object, sometimes.. he even doesn't know how to express his feeling , maybe to everyone..

Half year are nearly passes by... still doing the same thing, living with the life of bored, lazy,useless, and lost... Even know he sometimes broke his wings, and he can't stand up and fly higher again, his friends, as guardian for him, raise him up once again,let him had a chance to fly higher.. but, guardians are not always by ur side, they can't always help u up when u're fall... they still need to help themself to get to the highest..tht's not ur fault or his fault, these things happen naturally...

Everyone had a way to success, including him.. but, his way had blocked by a thick mist,for now ,sometimes, lose in some things or some life or maybe some chance , is a normal thing, not everyone is 100% prefect.. EMO ppl like him..., way of success are often blur or maybe not clear, they need many things in life more than others, support,courage,bravery, confident, trust, and believes in his own...


(to be continue, end of part 1)

Don't understand..

Haiz..3 new post d, only receive 2 comment.. isit my post too noob or too many words d? or isit i'm not famous or dunnoe how to write blog? why..why? maybe...some ppl dun like to write comment, some ppl lazy to write..maybe..lazy to view? nvm.. all i can forgive, but..at least view my blog once a week, and at least leave ONE comment in every post IF CAN...thanks for the support>.<>.<